Hymn of the Rock

Continuing my project of setting John Newton and William Cowper’s Olney Hymns to new music, here is my latest, a hymn which Newton called “That Rock Was Christ”, after 1 Corinthians 10:4. Newton’s words are, as always, beautiful, verging on heartbreaking. I have tried to capture them with my tune. It is perhaps the recording I am the happiest with so far. I hope you enjoy and benefit from it like I have done in recording it. Here are Newton’s words below for you to read as you listen.


That Rock Was Christ - John Newton (Original Music by Matthew Pullar)

When Israel's tribes were parch'd with thirst, 
Forth from the rock the waters burst; 
And all their future journey through 
Yielded them drink, and Gospel too! 

In Moses' rod a type they saw 
Of his severe and fiery law; 
The smitten rock prefigur'd Him 
From whose pierc'd side all blessings stream. 

Their outward rock could feel no pain, 
But ours was wounded, torn and slain; 
The rock gave but a wat'ry flood, 
But Jesus pour'd forth streams of blood. 

The earth is like their wilderness, 
A land of drought and sore distress; 
Without one stream from pole to pole, 
To satisfy a thirsty soul. 

But let the Saviour's praise resound; 
In him refreshing streams are found, 
Which pardon, strength, and comfort give; 
And thirsty sinners drink and live.

Numbering Days (After Marianne Moore’s “What are Years?”)

Today’s poem – my last one responding to Marianne Moore – is inspired by her great reflection on mortality and eternity, “What are Years?” It was the first of her poems that I ever read, back when I was studying poetry in the fourth year of my Literature degree, and I still remember the impact of those words when I first encountered them. You can read Moore’s poem here. As always, I am quite sure that my poem does not do justice to Moore’s work, but here it is anyway – a good reminder to me, and hopefully to all of us, of the wisdom of Psalm 90:12 – “Teach us to number our days aright, that we may gain a heart of wisdom.”
 
Numbering Days (After “What are Years?”)

           Days are short and time fades,
but breath is shorter: the
            out and in, the lungs finding
reason, purpose, yet ephemeral
as the flower’s first
petal, peering tentative to sun,
or a child teetering
            on feet not yet attuned
            yet little time to learn.

            How wonderful to be wise!
But apples’ after-taste
            is bitter like a seed; so
weak the life we breathe, how lasting death.
The snake, condemned to
spend its days in dust, belly-crawling,
            knows how futile those first
            steps can prove. But the one

            who walks bravely, feeling
finitude yet breathing,
            embracing breath, days numbered,
will see through humbled eyes how days wane
when held too tightly
how breath lengthens when released, how sun
            shines brightest when it shines
            humbled under true light.

Theology Part 4: Psalm

God, my love is vapour,
            my heart’s dust.
I pass and fade like dew,
                       like day;
            I tremble like the dawn.

God, my all is empty,
            I have no
grace to give my neighbour or
                        give You.
            So be my everything –

be constant when I fade,
            constant in
my nothingness, my sapping
                        strength, my
            faithless, lovelessness.

Theology Part 3: Pursuance

Go and do likewise;
what you have seen,
now do, and do with joy,
            and what
you have heard once
whispered
            in your ear,
proclaim it from the rooftops;
                          now shout

the truth that rings
in your ears; proclaim
in word and deed and
            in the beat
of your changed, now
            pounding
            heart, stone
replaced with flesh and life
                         instead

of death. What deeds
consumed your life
in days before: now toss them
            into
the winds of yesterday;
            follow
            the man
from Galilee whose steps now lead
                         towards

love’s Cross. Watch king
throw off His crown, and take
thorns upon His brow;
            now see
all vast eternity’s wisdom
            contained
            in Him;
see His scars and learn; now go and do
                          likewise.

Theology Part 2: Resolution

…love to one’s neighbour is not to be sung about – it is to be fulfilled in reality. Even if there were nothing else to hinder the poet from artistically celebrating love to one’s neighbour in song, it is quite enough that with invisible letters behind every word in Holy Scripture a disturbing notice confronts him – for there it reads: go and do likewise.
(Søren Kierkegaard, Works of Love)

 

Faith is no good if,
seeing yourself
in a morning mirror,
you walk into the day
and forget your own face.
 
Love is no good if,
taking, not giving,
you can say to your father
whose all is your own,
“Give me now what is mine.”
 
And poetry is no good
if you can walk to Jericho
and leave the stranger
lying, bleeding
beside the bleeding road.

Lines of Flight

No root, no trunk, no stem, only these weeds;
  No path to travel, only lines of flight.
No start, no finish, unity or seed,
  Only these thoughts that twist and turn, alight.
And when the course is twisted and the root
  Cannot be simplified, then who are we?
We are creators and Creation's fruit,
  We are this complex multiplicity.
We are the thoughts inside the Maker's mind
  Yet we are circling where we do not know.
We are towards Him, and in space and time,
  We are eternal in the finite Now.
The truth is tangled and we cannot see
  Yet in the complex mass, the sovereign He.

Theology Part 1: Acknowledgement

First of all, acknowledge Him;
know that all good comes from Him.
The sun, the moon are His lamp-shades,
the sea His pool, the skies His chair.
Health and growth and happiness:
these are from Him; He made them.
Relationships, prosperity:
all good comes from Him.
Rain to make the soil soft,
sunlight so that plants may grow,
air so we and they may breath:
    turn to Him with thanks.

And then, submit: know He is God
and you are not; the difference there
is pivotal, though you forget
its truth from time to time.
He is not man that we may twist
His arm in our direction;
nor is He a tyrant that
He does not hear our cries.
Age to age unchanging, yet
relationship within His core:
acknowledge Him, give thanks and bow;
    know that He is God.

And love: love Him, for He is good.
In loving Him, we learn to love,
for love’s made perfect when it’s turned
to its most worthy object and
not towards ourselves.
And then, turn out to love like Him;
love and see you cannot love
without His love within Your core.
Only when we know the gulf
of Being between us and Him
can we marvel that we’re His
    and learn to love aright.

You shall love

not to win the dash and charm the crowd
           nor gain a victor’s kiss,
not that you may save yourself
            from lonely night on lonely night:
                      not for all of this.

Nor that passers-by may give you love
            or those for whom you’ve pined,
not that you may earn a wreath
            and win praises far and wide
                        for your sacrifice.

Nor in finding love shall you ask why
            or put it to the test
as though you could not give your love
            without the promise of return;
                        no, love without this.

“More beloving than beloved”, you shall
            love with all eternity’s great breadth
and breath. Love by Love suspired,
            give love without the thought of love
                        and let Love sustain.

“Only when love is a duty, then
            is love secure”; then
is love an act of freedom, un-
            shackled from our expectations,
                        doubts and fears. So love:

and in loving, learn the depth, the height –
            see scars that were His crown;
love given without fear of love
            or thought of throne, such love
                        lives eternally.

Instinct (After Marianne Moore’s “Melanchthon”)

Today’s poem was a difficult one to write. Enchanted as I am by Marianne Moore’s work, she is a tough poet to imitate, tougher still to understand. But I have given it my best shot! Fascinated by animals, human nature and the poetic contrasts and parallels between the two, many of Moore’s poems deal with weird and exotic creatures and draw unlikely comparisons between them and humanity. In today’s poem I have tried my hand at this strategy, with the blind burrowing mole and my sister’s cocker spaniel-poodle cross as inspiration. You can read the original poem that inspired it here, thanks to another blogger who has kindly posted it.
 
Instinct (After “Melanchthon”)

What prevents man, individually and collectively, from behaving reasonably and
morally is not so much ignorance as a self-blindness induced by some passion or
desire.
(W.H. Auden, The Dyer’s Hand)

Thinking, granted,
but less like a mind,
            more like an eager dog in search of a worn-out bone.
            These things comfort me: in my corner of the garden,

familiar, it
gives safety, blanket-
            like, tattered and torn, yet homely in its weathered wear.
            The mind glimpses, encompasses these things which Bentham

sees from his
prison tower and knows;
            surveillance gives the impulse, but instinct the reason.
            And so a dog returns to its own refuse and Jonah

hides for days
inside his whale; and
            I too need corners and familiar scents. Why I am
            what I am, I do not know. The dog has its goals and

its purposes,
so too the mole which,
            though blind, is quicker than the human mind’s quickest percep-
            tion. Yet we move by more than mere impulse, by brain-waves

which fly and flit
before we hear them.
            Reflexes have no accompanying, conscious thought
            yet some things are learnt and made reflex that should be conscious.
 
“Adam, who told
you that you were
            naked?” No need to teach him to hide his shame in leaves
            once the brain already knew, “Eat apple”. Automated

and unthinking
disobedience is
            the hardest to overcome; and we are cursed (blessed?)
            with the knowledge that instinct, though enchanting, is

not enough, blessed
(cursed?) with eyes to see
            both the apple and the consequence. If blind, we are
            wiser than our blindness knows, yet too blind to know it.

The dog, the mole,
defy us, yet we
            are called to more. “Naked, man, the self”: what’s been bestowed
            on him, on us, declares we cannot plead ignorance.

Man – the height, though
helpless before the
            creatures that preceded him – must bow and rule, burrow
            and build, obey and reason, trust and know, be blind and see.

What calling, what
heights beside what depths!
            What impulse and what instinct, what knowledge planted through
            that first breath, knowing all the blindness yet breathing still.

Creation

What does it mean for humans to create? This is a question that has always been important to me, as a creative person. But as I have delved further into my Masters degree, much of which is concerned with the role of creativity in education, it has become something I have pondered more and more. This poem is a step towards considering particularly what it means to work creatively under a creator God.
 
Creation

not ex nihilo, for
         all matter is that shall be
and cannot be
                  created or
         destroyed, only
re-organised, reshuffled,

like pieces in a shifting
         puzzle, or the notes within
the stave, position
                  altered to
         make sounds
majestic like the breath

of dawn upon dry ribs,
         the tune of rising life,
of fluctuating spirit,
                  working in
         the scheme
already fixed, yet shifting.

But what privilege
         to plant seed and see
it grow, to see these
                  atoms move,
         rearrange
in ever-changing harmony!

As though the Maker
         of these things, had set
within unchanging self
                  the wish
         to see
our hands participate

in the turning of this soil, this
         mixing of colour, of sound,
as though His father’s wish
                  was to share
         beauty’s growth
and to make it grow through us.