And keep –
keep me, keep watch, keep hope.
The pains that crush me are like pricks beside
Your agony, and yet
You hold
arms out as though to gather in
more pain, more shame, and thus
more me.
Man of sorrows,
what a name,
what a scheme
that stretches out the heavens
yet does not scorn these nails.
Take
my proud sobbing, my heart’s throbbing; take
all my attempts to rise with Self.
Enfold me in Your scars and sing
Your grace
through endless days.
crucifixion
Lent 45: Good Friday
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They took him down to Golgotha,
to Golgotha, the place of skulls;
they set him in between two thieves
and hurled disease on him.
They struck his face and speared his side
at Golgotha, at Golgotha;
they called him king and laughed at him
and cursed him on the tree.
The earth, it shook at Golgotha,
at Golgotha, the place of skulls;
the dead arose, the sky was dead
and soldiers stared at him.
They said he was the Son of God,
at Golgotha, at Golgotha;
he bled and died at Golgotha,
accursed, upon a tree.
Lent 39: Saturday of Fifth Week
Sit with Him; eat with Him;
dip the bread, by His side –
Surely Lord not I?
Walk with Him through olive trees;
fall asleep and fail to pray;
watch as one of you betrays –
Surely Lord not I?
Warm yourself by cosy fires;
answer truth with spitting lies;
listen as the cock crows; Thrice
you will deny me. Adamant:
Surely Lord not I?
Watch as thorns are made His crown;
see the dice cast for His clothes;
see them spit and mock and dance;
see them cast their king aside;
Surely Lord, surely Lord,
surely Lord, not I?
See Him breathe with aching breath;
see Him lift Himself and gasp;
see Him turn His gaze to sky;
see Him ask in agony:
Forgive them, Father, they know not
what they do. See; watch and weep:
Surely Lord, surely Lord,
surely, Lord, not I?
See Him cast death, weak, aside;
see Him take on life and rise.
See Him lift the cursed ones too
and take them through His life and death;
see Him give His death to them
and give His life and give His pain
and give His life to live again.
Surely Lord, surely Lord,
surely, Lord, not I?
Lent 38: Friday of Fifth Week
Look:
see the woman with her oil and hair;
see His feet (they’re not yet scarred);
see the gasp upon your face;
see His searching eyes.
Listen:
He spoke to you of the Son of Man;
He spoke of death and burial;
He spoke of Passover, exodus;
He spoke; you did not hear.
Learn:
He stands to tell you all the truth;
He stands beside the lavish act;
He stands against what we expect;
He stands soon in our place.
Lent 12: Second Sunday of Lent
Do the hills bring comfort?
Soon He will ascend His penultimate hill,
crown on brow, chest weighed down,
wrath upon His soul.
From where will come His aid?
He leaves the tabernacle, the comfort
of union, the certainty of feet
which cannot stumble.
I lift up mine eyes…
The glorious handiwork of hands soon scarred
stretch into horizon, the resting stool
of feet bent upon a cross…
“Were you there…?” – Streaming Page CXVI Day Three
Were you there when they crucified my Lord? None of us today can answer “yes”. Yet the truth and power of that moment is never diminished, how much time stretches between us and it.
Today’s track from Page CXVI’s “Lent to Maundy Thursday” combines two old hymns: “Were You There?” and “O The Deep, Deep Love of Jesus”. May it help us keep preparing our hearts for the truth of Easter.
Friday Before Lent
I was not there;
my heart cannot prepare
for sights like these:
the way Love trembles on its throne,
and mercy sweats blood.
I was not there,
and in my absence there is guilt:
the nonchalance of one who sits
a safer distance from the fright;
yet Love knows I would have been
as blood-thirsty as the rest.
I was not there,
yet Love draws further
than the bounds of space and time,
into my desperate present where
the love of Jesus lives.
I was not there;
my soul cannot prepare
itself for what it finds:
mercy thick with knowledge, rich
in wisdom before time, grounded, deep
into each present cry.
Crux
Yesterday I posted my own poem written in response to Peter Steele’s heartbreaking “Crux”. Here, as an additional kind of tribute to my old teacher, is a musical setting of the poem that I wrote and recorded. Steele’s words, from his liturgical sequence, “A Season in Retreat”, are included below for you to read as you listen.
Crux (From Peter Steele, “A Season in Retreat”, Marching on Paradise, 1984) Seeing you go Where the dead are bound, and having no resource To twist those timbers out of their lethal course, I want at least to know What I can say Now that the boasts have blown away and even The cursing has grown faint, while the pall of heaven Abolishes the day. I was never wise In word or silence, never understood The killer in my members, thought of good As what one might devise From scraps of evil. How can I learn a way for me or mine To stand beside you? Vinegar, not wine, Is all we give you still. Among the dice And the dirt, with more of shame than love to show, All that will come to heart is ‘Do not go Alone to Paradise.’
